A Moment in the Garden
This morning I stopped moving. I realized I was feeling anxious and starting to let my thoughts spin. Guests leaving, more guests coming tonight, and a party to throw this weekend. Where is that to-do list?!!?
So I stopped. Christine, what would you tell someone to do? It’s time to follow your own advice…
I have 20 minutes. What can I do to calm my system? What can I do to gain perspective? I could meditate, but is there something I can do and still be available to my guests? The gardens! I walked down to the shed and as soon as I put on the gardening gloves and grabbed my weed bucket, I felt my breath change gears. I went up to the patio and dropped to my knees; the breath goes down another notch. I carefully insert my hand weeder in-between the bricks to widen them a bit and pull out a week….another notch of calm.
Methodically I move, one weed then the next.
I feel the warm sun on my back.
The breeze moves my hair, still wet from a shower.
I look just in front of me, only to the next weed.
I hear the symphony around me,
Someone is in the kitchen rinsing a dish;
The meadowlark sings loudly from the top of the house;
The Lilly leaves rustle;
A plane flies far overhead;
A bee finds a pansy near me.
My shoulders relax down my back;
My knees against the knee pad;
The bend in my toes.
I feel my shoulders relax.
Just a few short moments and I go back to the to-do list. Hours later my gardening tools are still on the patio and my shoulders are still relaxed and a few things are crossed off the list.
Today I remembered. It’s a small victory and maybe tomorrow I don’t remember to stop and feel what’s happening inside, but each time I do I start to build that memory. If you want to start building that ability to hesitate when you feel stress coming, remember STOP.
S – Stop what you are doing. Hesitate.
T – Take a breath. Follow your breath in and out.
O- Observe how you feel. What’s going on in your body, with your mind and emotions?
P – Proceed and make it a conscious decision.